Yesterday I came home after a PPTQ with much on my mind to do.
I fell asleep.
Magic can be exhausting. Doesn't help when you put a lot of pressure on yourself to alawys be the best. I can't. I won't. I just have to try. Although it is frustrating that I somehow seem to brainfart more at an "important" tournament like a PPTQ. Well, saying "I can't" probably does not help.
But I am really tired.
I wonder if Magic is bad for me because of how I handle losses and bad luck or how I handle losses and bad luck is exactly why I should keep playing Magic and try to improve myself as a person and see what follows.
It sure beats just sitting around and sleeping, which is what my depression makes me want to do most days.