Always the bridesmaid

Came in third in tonight's Standard Showdown. Okay. That's not bad. I don't think I made too many misplays, although it does feel kind of shitty to lose the last round to a deck that mine is supposed to beat.

Variance, I suppose? I saw little card draw and my opponent always had his counters when he needed them and he got my Scarab God off of a Gonti, which I just couldn't counter. So it was good on him. I can't point out too many mistakes I made. Myabe I should have held off on using a Fatal Push until I could have something die and then push his Virtuoso? I didn't see a single Scarab God all the matches, and perhaps I was too eager to get my Gearhulks out and should have waited until it was clar, but I don't think I would have ever gotten that chance.

I was really banking on getting an Hour of Destruction off to ruin his board but my Azcanta wasn't digging for one. I guess that happens. But I like the deck still. Even though a part of me still feels as if I'm "playing a week behind" everyone else. I just don't feel like I'm on top of Magic even though I'm reading all the news and following the top decks. It feels like there's some secret I'm missing.

I think that's part of the depression/anxiety of my brain. That part needs to shut up.