The third 1-2

Okay. Maybe I'm playing too much Magic. Three tournaments in as many days. Playing the same deck. Trying to "understand it." Three 1-2 tournaments. I just feel such frustration like there is some external force that is making me lose. I know it's a bit of luck and probably some misplays on my point, but I feel like I did with my Japanese a while back where no matter what I did I was just where I was and my wheels were spinning.

This is a hobby, and I do it to "relax". Hah.

Well, no, it is fun. I get a mental kick out of doing it. And the challenging myself has been helping me to feel the need to challenge myself in other aspects of my life. And that's overall a good thing.

But I'd like to play my three drops. Please, 26 lands, can you come at a decent pace like my opponent's seem to? Because they are playing four fucking colors with no fixing, but my two color deck can't draw land three.

Ugh, I don't want to be that guy. I don't want to be the mana screw guy. But why are my matches done in fifteen minutes of me mostly not playing while everyone else in the store seems to have these long, deep games going on. I'm doing something wrong, and I can't figure out what it is.