Irrational fears

I had some time this afternoon to play Magic Online or another video game. But I didn’t.

I’m scared to.

I know it’s stupid. Very stupid. But I’m afraid. Something in me clenches and so I go to my bed instead. I am so afraid of games right now.

I could be practicing new decks in Standard because I am actually excited about the bans and the changes to the format.

But I am scared to play games. And I can’t figure out why.