Last place

Played in two Magic tournaments today. Came in last place both times.

It was just bad. There were a few misplays but just times where I got nothing that I needed. I got so fed up the last round that I chucked my deck on the floor.

I'm so embarrassed that I did that.

This is just a card game. But my blood was boiling. I felt so helpless. So much rage. And all the anger and stress about other things in my life came out.

But that's just excuses. I shouldn't act that way. I hope the other patrons realize I was just angry and won't hate me or ban me from the store. That is my biggest worry. This is something I need to work on. Feelings.